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BY:  Blackrose4824



                CUT'S AND BURNS



       

    “I'm sorry you will have to have surgery to put a pin to hold your ankle together.” The doctor told me as he was sitting down in his chair. “I don't want to have surgery it scares me”, I said though in my mind I knew if I got surgery it was going to be for the best and I was also thinking that I knew after the surgery I would do some thing crazy to my self. “ah!” totally not cool. 100% not cool.

    It was stuck in my mind the surgery I mean. It was stuck there so long that i started cutting and also burning myself.    

     I met the most  sweet, kind guy in my class. I thought there is no chance because he has a “girlfriend”. Then I started thinking about it again. I thought about the worst day of my life while I was cutting and burning myself. No body in my classes would really know because I told them that I hurt myself doing different things. After awhile people in my classes now in 7th grade, started to talk about it so I knew right then I had to tell them the truth. It may have taken awhile but I did. I told them the truth of my past. They all treated me like a big pile of crap. I hated that. They only person who didn't was Carson. He made me feel a whole lot more confident that every body, soon enough would just plain leave me alone.

    I knew I had to stop cutting and burning myself but I couldn't do it. Then I realized that it was time to finally stop for good. So I know I regret ever even doing that. Well, that's not the end no not even there no not yet. I had to tell my mom; I knew I did . But I didn't tell her. I still haven't told her I hope I never have  to. because if I do I'll never be able to live a normal life like every body else dose. I hate my life. If I had the choice I would do it all over and not end up with all these scar's.

     Also if I could not do that I would have killed my self a long time ago and then I would not have met Colby. Well that dose not matter anyway. I still had not done the things I did. It's important to live out your life and learn to let go of the past and move on with your life, so the most important people in your life will not have to feel so bad when they notice that you look like your upset.  Then they will not go through life thinking that they drove you nut's. So much that you want to hurt your self or just totally like kill your self. All those things are evil thing's to do to your family. I to this day hate what I did when I was young and not as smart as I am now. Also that's one of  the most  messed up thing I've ever done I hate it. But trust me that's not the only messed up thing I've ever done. I  know of other things I've done that I regret. I love that I stopped that whole cutting and burning thing.



        THE END

jade harper bpw

             The art store

  What I will be selling all kinds of art music, drawings, painting's and also i will be selling art supply's. Like paint's, colored pencil's, pencil's, oil pastels, color pastels, colored oil pastetel paint brushes,ext. and makers. ext. My art supply's and my picture's  and music will be lower than the stores prices. It will make a lot of women, men. Ext. Will want to buy it. It will be so good that they will want to just come in to have a good time with the actives set out for them.